I think I know why I can’t think of what I want: I already know what I really want but since I can’t really have it right now, I have a hard time thinking of other things that make me happy.
Cause damn it, I want to move back to Charlotte! I soooo miss living there!
I keep thinking I’d love to get some sushi from Ru’Sans or walk around South Park Mall or drive around the city or move into one of the many great apartments there and get a big cosy sofa or enjoy a nice day at the pool or BBQ with my friends or go to work knowing that I’m working to have a great life or just having a glass of fresh OJ while cutting out coupons or looking at the cute houses. Just the little things…
And I know that most of my friends aren’t there anymore but even when I had just gotten there and didn’t know many people I felt incredibly happy in that town. Gnarg!
Fingers crossed for this year’s green card lottery but damn, I need to think of something that I want to do here because you never know what’s gonna happen and if I’ll ever get to go back there and bla… DAMN!
But yeah, no denying, Charlotte is where I want to go and I don’t really care what kind of job I do there as long as people are nice, the work isn’t shitty, and the company pays enough for me to live comfortably.
Hard to focus on what I want to do instead or until when I’m back there… :-/